| New site. This is my ONLY one now. The rest are shut down.
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| That wasn't my last post I was just upset. Sorry.
Karen - I don't ask for pity. If you pity me, I'm sorry. I don't remember who I called that but I KNOW that I didn't mean it. I was upset. I can't really control what I say when I'm upset. In case you didn't notice I have a few more mental problems than I like to go about telling people. If that keeps you from being my friend then Goodbye. And NO I'm not begging for pity there. Just letting you know. And you were just ONE of the people who avoid me. I don't really care anymore. Not my friend, friend, whatever. If you want all your notes and your dolphin thing back come see me at lunch. Because if you won't talk to me, then I don't want them.
I know that there are people out there who are my friends and they know that I can't really control my emotions. It's not something I'm proud of and I have to live with it every day. I already feel like a dick for not being able to help it so thanks for taking that extra step to make me like total shit. But it's okay because you really didn't know how fucked in the head I really am. Don't pity me. I don't want it.
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A lot has happened. Sorry if I've offended anyone but you won't have to deal with it much longer. As soon as I move to NY with Andrew and Aaron, I will be out of everyones hair. Sorry for screwing up so many peoples lives. Exscuse me for having problems. Next time I won't talk to anyone is that cool?  
Heather, Andrew, Aaron, and Sara - See you guys soon. I miss you all.
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| This is my last entry. If you must contact me, you can use my other site less_than_enthusiatic or my AIM. I am sick of all this drama. I want no part in it.
A LOT of my friends from last year will not speak to me and are avoiding me. I can only take so much. I can take the heartache of liking a girl and her not feeling the same, but when my friends abandon me, I don't know what to do. I never did anything bad to anybody. I have been switched to 2nd lunch. Not good. I know people in second lunch. I can't beleive that these people won't talk to me. Especially this one guy. I won't use names. But he and me were really good friends and he just totally blew me off. Like some other people too. I want to move to New York as soon as possible. Say goodbye to my "friends" if they even give a shit. Peace out and piss off.
James David |
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| The last couple of entries were written by Heather. They pretty much some up how I feel. It sucks that I had to start the first day of school in this kind of mood.
I think Karen is avoiding me..... I called her name today because I saw her and she looked at me and kept walking. No smile, no wave, no nothing. Maybe I should call her (after 7) and see if she's ok.
I found a nice candle with a plastic brown holder. I like it. It will make and excellent addition to my stuff. Well I must go. See you later.
Dave |
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| Forget the last entry.... I don't mean it anymore..  Nothing is going to happen between me and her. Curse it!
You want to know what I think about this whole thing: (Written By Dave's Friend Heather) I think some of this all has to do with fear. Fear of chances. Somethings that require risks are the greatest things in the world, but if you have fear, you will never experience these great things. Fear of the Future. The future is not in your hands, don't try to predict it! Don't say "well if we break up...." take it one step at a time!! Its like your dooming everything before it happens. Don't let fear rule your life!! -> Heather |
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